Everyday Journey

Everyday Journey

The weeks passed so quickly. I haven’t noticed that the kids vacation was over. I was so busy with my work and school. At least, some of those days I have been able to spend some time with my two daughters. We went to Science Museum and watch 4d Movie about Shark. They loved it. They felt the water in their body and sound of the ocean feels real. Then we roam around and browsing all the interested things inside the museum like the mirror exhibit.  My younger daughter was interested in planetarium and the tornado display. I felt satisfied even for a short time, I spent quality time for my kids. I was looking at them and thought to myself, how time flies so fast.

When I’m at home, my mind is wandering what should I do first. There are so many things to do that I needed to accomplish. First, cleaning the house, next is cooking, and last washing clothes. I am so irritated when I see the house dirty and not organized. I feel like there is no way I will continue cleaning and they are keep on making mess. I cannot finish my chores even I wanted to do it systematically. I am so tired and feel like nobody’s helping me. I realized how my mother had been through all this most of her life with seven kids. I am so exhausted. I really need a time for myself, just to gather my thoughts and relaxed my mind.

Finally, Friday, after I finished all my chores and my homework from school. Time to relax, I don’t have school on Friday but I have work.  I called my friend to hang out after my work. We just went to Thai restaurant and catches up about the latest news in our lives. She is pregnant with twins two boys. Good for her. We went around the Davis Square, in Somerville and looked at the thrifty store. The night was cold, but it gives me a nice feeling. I feel free and fresh and a little time to unwind with my friend. I came home and my kids are already sleeping. I still want a space for myself so I read one of my favorite book, Chicken Soup for Mother's Soul. I was crying while I’m reading it. I really miss my mother.

Experience is The Best Teacher

 VIVID MOMENTS

I would like to share my inspiring moments that I have experienced and also gained knowledge from it. It helps me to become a stronger person and learned a big lesson in life. Although, it was not easy but the memories and lesson I learned gave more meaning and inspiration as I go on living in this world. They said experiences is a great teacher. It is indeed the best teacher you ever had in your life. No one will give you more knowledge than your own experience. Even you consider it bad or good. There was always something you got from those moments. So learned from it and try to improve for the best.

Welcoming Home

 CULTURAL DIFFERENCES

My first unforgettable experienced was the day I step in Nepal, where I lived with my husband. His brother in law welcomed us at the airport.  extended my hand towards him for a handshake, but he hesitated. I have learned  that saying "Namaste" is more respectful than giving them a handshake. I made a bad impression on our first meeting. Next thing, was meeting all the relatives. I was so naïve and didn't know what to do, and neither my husband give me some insight, what I will expect. I didn't know the google at that time. I was clueless. Coming first time in the house needs a ritual. There is fire and flower that they will encircle to both of you. Another thing was to step on the red footprints. That was a welcome sign for them. I have to bend and kiss their feet ( only women) which I felt uncomfortable at that time. But I have to compromise and respect their culture. The language was a big problem and their way of life which is totally new to me. I learned from those experiences that I need to be flexible and make some preparation before you go to another phase of life. Study another language so that you can communicate and be able to socialize. And most of all respecting our differences especially if you are  in foreign countr

My first baby.

FIRST TIME MOM

The second one was the birth of my first child. Motherhood changes everything. As a first time Mom with no experience taking care of a small baby. Life turned upside down with  my husband and I. We were both ignorant and no knowledge. They said when there is baby in the house it will be full of happiness. But on my part, It was a nightmare. We fought most of the time because we don't know how to stop the baby crying in the middle of the night.  We had sleepless night and we don't have time for ourselves. We felt restless and unhappy. He wanted to sleep because he will go to work in the morning. But I tried everything and its not working. After so many sleepless night and trying. We finally overcome the hardships and we get used to the routine. Being new to the environment and new experienced bring your emotion and relationship into turmoil. We learned from our mistakes and gained some knowledge out of it. I salute to all the mother whose sacrifices was beyond compare, They are selfless, who  always thinks of their children's well being.

First time visit in Niagara Falls, New York

LAND OF OPPURTUNITY

Lastly, coming here in US had a big impact in my life. I didn't dream to come in US. I have been to other country but only to work by myself. With my daughter and my husband together, what else I could want more. They said America is a land of fortune. I had so many dream at that time. Find a job, save more money and buy a nice house. I admired all the beautiful places that we visited. Everywhere was clean and systematic. I saw different people with their diverse ethnicity. In that moment there was a feeling of happiness and I thought of how lucky I am for opportunity to come to the US. If I compare my life in my country or in Nepal. I could say I am in  a more better place now. I don't have my own relatives here, but I can help them in times of need. Life here is struggle  and lot of bills to pay. But with your determination to succeed everything will be possible. It will take time, there is no easy way. Living here in US gave me more self freedom  and lots of opportunity. And I am willing to grab it If it comes on my way.

My Power Within

Harness the Power Within

Being a newly comer in a new place takes a lot of courage to face. The possibility of wanting to be included in a group or community are very real. Conquering my fear and remind myself of the  positive aspect that I have in me. I remembered my first job in Dunkin Donuts as a service crew. I was so scared, hardly understand what people said. Irritated customers asking for another person to give their orders.  I was so overwhelmed and asking myself, If  I can continue working like this. My little on line training didn't help that much to perform my job. But I know in my mind that I need this job to support my family needs. We had just moved to a renting house. We just came in US for a month and I needed the money to pay the rent. My positive mind and survival mode kicked in. I organized my thoughts and starting to apologized to customer that I was new. Giving them my sweetest smile and a nice customer service that I can offer. Some people understood what I have been through. As the day goes by,  I became familiar around the store with the help of  my co-worker. My eagerness to learn quick because of the not so happy situation that I encountered, made me organized my thoughts and charged it as my learning experience. It helps me to stay positive in all situation and give my best shot.

There are some circumstances in our lives that we don't have control.  Even you feel empowered and always think that whatever happen, you can handle it well. I heard  other says " everything is under control". But we know, It is not always happening. We tend to feel powerless, emotional, perplexed and vulnerable in some situations in our lives. After working in Dunkin Donuts for a year. I started to look for another opportunity that offer high income and learn a new experience. I applied in a daycare  and got hired. I was happy and elated. It was full time job and it will help me to save some money. I started training working with toddlers and I enjoyed it. It was physically exhausting but the babies were so cute and adorable.  Their smiles can cures your sadness and fatigue. And as the day goes by and weeks I became familiar with the routine and activities. Sooner, I started to feel the difference in  treatment  of the pioneer teachers in that school. They started to make me do the things that they cannot do or hard for them to do. Like, attending the kids while they are busy with their cellphones. Asking me to change the diapers of kids multiple times. It should be sharing responsibilities. Talking privately with other teachers about me. I overheard it when I passed. They see my mistakes and not acknowledging their mistakes. I feel like I was bullied. Maybe because I was new and my accent is different. All of those reasons and the treatment made me feel like they belittling me. I feel down and thinking I'm not happy with my job so I decided to quit.  My self pity and sensitiveness lost my power within.

In every experienced in life, we have to learn something from it. Although many times, we tend to focus our well being first. Thinking highly regard of ourselves. Feeling elated when success kicks in. But most of the time, we guard our thoughts by simply reminding ourselves the positive thoughts within us. Sometimes, when I feel need to charge my self. I tried to read books that will enhanced my power within,  like motivation  books. Reading those kind of books give me confident that I can do everything If I try harder. I read a saying in a book that catch my attention and it says" Whatever mind can conceive, the mind can  achieve." It stick to my mind. And when the times I doubt myself  and feeling down. It helps me to be positive and confident that I can do everything in my power.
Other times I'm reminding myself that I'm lucky to have a family  and support. I also count my blessing that I have continue receiving , even it is small and big. That makes me happy and contented in my present situation. Being conceited to yourself like reminding your inner strength, help to boost your ego. I will say to myself that I am beautiful. I am confident. I'm positive and upbeat. I'm a total optimist and many more. That way I can harness my power within.